28th Aug, 2017
Now I want to start this with saying that this post will be SAPPY AND STUPID.
I'm 14, I can be excused for this.
I got out of my very first relationship around February this year, so it's been 6 months. I liked them a lot, I took it fairly seriously and I put in effort into making it work.
But just like any other high school relationships, it failed. Miserably.
So I took a silent vow to not get involved in any romantic relationships until I get into university. Now this is where the problem lies. At the very moment where I took that vow, I didn't feel any romantic feelings towards anyone and I doubted that I would feel anything because I got a taste of how dramatic and bitter a high school relationship is.
But haha, look at me now.
Boy am I liking someone so hard right now.
It's not even a mere crush on their face, I actually like their company and want to talk to them more and more and it's so stupid and BAD for me.
I hate not being able to focus and it's just so useless.
I just want to focus on my work but noooo, hormones had to get in the way. I blame puberty.
Now this person, they're funny, silly, supportive, and I opened up to them so easily. It's so stupid and I am so vulnerable towards this person because I've told them nearly everything about myself. I want to get to know them a bit more but I can't help but think that they don't care about me because I always start the conversation and
UGH someone stop me
I'm 14, I can be excused for this.
I got out of my very first relationship around February this year, so it's been 6 months. I liked them a lot, I took it fairly seriously and I put in effort into making it work.
But just like any other high school relationships, it failed. Miserably.
So I took a silent vow to not get involved in any romantic relationships until I get into university. Now this is where the problem lies. At the very moment where I took that vow, I didn't feel any romantic feelings towards anyone and I doubted that I would feel anything because I got a taste of how dramatic and bitter a high school relationship is.
But haha, look at me now.
Boy am I liking someone so hard right now.
It's not even a mere crush on their face, I actually like their company and want to talk to them more and more and it's so stupid and BAD for me.
I hate not being able to focus and it's just so useless.
I just want to focus on my work but noooo, hormones had to get in the way. I blame puberty.
Now this person, they're funny, silly, supportive, and I opened up to them so easily. It's so stupid and I am so vulnerable towards this person because I've told them nearly everything about myself. I want to get to know them a bit more but I can't help but think that they don't care about me because I always start the conversation and
UGH someone stop me
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