4th Feb, 2018
Just had a nightmare.
It started off with a normal day. I was calling my boyfriend, but I couldn't call for much longer since I had things to do and he was visibly disappointed but accepted it and we exchanged 'see you later's and 'I love you's, like normal.
And then I got in a fight with my sister because I found out she had been cheating on her boyfriend; not physically but emotionally. She's been texting numerous other guys and flirting with them, even telling them that she's single and she wishes they were with them. She even sexted one of them. I wasn't okay with this, so I told her that she is cheating, because she is. She denied everything and then I walk out of the room angrily.
I took a breather for an hour and then I decided I wanted to talk to my boyfriend because I know he'd make me feel better, so I asked to call him but he didn't answer. I thought this was strange because I knew he'd be free all day so I asked him again, but to no avail. I went back in my house and found him sprawled across the couch with my sister, making out and in the process of taking of each other's clothes.
I was understandably upset, I confronted him and was mad at him, but then we decided to put it behind us and joked around like we usually do. I notice that I'm still angry so I wanted to bring it up again, and he mentioned that if I hadn't walked in, he would've gone all the way with her.
I asked him whether he felt bad about it and whether he would've told me if I hadn't walked in, and he said he wouldn't, he thought my sister is hot and that's it.
I woke up and I felt my heart racing, I was upset and I cried a little; I know how out of character the people in the dream was because my sister is the sweetest person alive and my boyfriend would never do anything to upset me, but I was shocked. This isn't a result of my lack of trust in both of them because they are both #1 to me, my sister in the family section and my boyfriend in friends and partners, I love them with all my heart.
I know this dream is a product of my own stress and insecurities, but I am still shaken up a bit and I've been up for around 5 hours. My boyfriend is still out with his friends and I have no doubts that he's just hanging out with the bois and having fun. When I woke up I sent him a quick 'I love you' and he replied back just about an hour ago and I'm feeling a bit better.
I just want to hear his voice and hang out with him for a while, but I don't think I'll bring up this nightmare with him since he might take it as me not having faith in him. I do, but my insecurities often get the best of me.
It started off with a normal day. I was calling my boyfriend, but I couldn't call for much longer since I had things to do and he was visibly disappointed but accepted it and we exchanged 'see you later's and 'I love you's, like normal.
And then I got in a fight with my sister because I found out she had been cheating on her boyfriend; not physically but emotionally. She's been texting numerous other guys and flirting with them, even telling them that she's single and she wishes they were with them. She even sexted one of them. I wasn't okay with this, so I told her that she is cheating, because she is. She denied everything and then I walk out of the room angrily.
I took a breather for an hour and then I decided I wanted to talk to my boyfriend because I know he'd make me feel better, so I asked to call him but he didn't answer. I thought this was strange because I knew he'd be free all day so I asked him again, but to no avail. I went back in my house and found him sprawled across the couch with my sister, making out and in the process of taking of each other's clothes.
I was understandably upset, I confronted him and was mad at him, but then we decided to put it behind us and joked around like we usually do. I notice that I'm still angry so I wanted to bring it up again, and he mentioned that if I hadn't walked in, he would've gone all the way with her.
I asked him whether he felt bad about it and whether he would've told me if I hadn't walked in, and he said he wouldn't, he thought my sister is hot and that's it.
I woke up and I felt my heart racing, I was upset and I cried a little; I know how out of character the people in the dream was because my sister is the sweetest person alive and my boyfriend would never do anything to upset me, but I was shocked. This isn't a result of my lack of trust in both of them because they are both #1 to me, my sister in the family section and my boyfriend in friends and partners, I love them with all my heart.
I know this dream is a product of my own stress and insecurities, but I am still shaken up a bit and I've been up for around 5 hours. My boyfriend is still out with his friends and I have no doubts that he's just hanging out with the bois and having fun. When I woke up I sent him a quick 'I love you' and he replied back just about an hour ago and I'm feeling a bit better.
I just want to hear his voice and hang out with him for a while, but I don't think I'll bring up this nightmare with him since he might take it as me not having faith in him. I do, but my insecurities often get the best of me.
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